Be Still

"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

I am impatient. I want things done. I want to check things off my list. I suppose that is why I do laundry only one day a week. It turns it into an item I can check off my list rather than an ongoing chore. I feel compelled to have a clean house before I can do anything fun so there are less things on my list to think about while I am having fun. Maybe I need therapy.

Soap is, as I have mentioned before, an exercise in patience. It is an exact science with precise measurements which appeals to my mathematical side and yet it is a process that is finished with no help from me. If the ingredients are mixed correctly and set aside, the saponification reaction carries on with no intervention from me. Here is where I have problems "being still". I want to poke at it and check it. I want to turn it over and cut it up. I keep peeking when it is supposed to be insulating and reacting. In short, I want to do something to make it done so I can check it off my list and congratulate myself on another soap well made.

"Be still and know that I am God" popped into my head while I was vacuuming this morning. I can only assume God is speaking to me and telling me to do less, listen more, and have faith. His timing is usually different than our own and yet, always a better outcome. I want to remodel our kitchen and I have been waiting for 4 years now. Every time it seems like the time is right something happens and our plans change. Most recently we were ready to get started and the money was needed to fix the basement. I know that God wants us here and He will provide for us. Eventually, we will remodel this kitchen and the money will be there. It's only a matter of timing. Still, I want to do something to speed up the timing. I am only human.

This afternoon, be still and know.